like disneyland but better...

I am beyond excited and can barely sit still. Why? MY PARENTS ARE IN MADRID! I am leaving after my class tomorrow to meet them and then we will leave for a weekend in Italy! No set agenda, just open minds and freedom to explore wherever we wish! I cannot tell you how happy I am that my parents are even in Europe! At the beginning of me wanting to come abroad it was never part of the plan for them to come visit (maybe they just kept it a secret). As my departure date grew closer I said to them “don’t you want to take me there and make sure that I make it okay?... You know like when you used to take me to camp?” They laughed and told me I would be just fine. But I knew that deep down they were plotting something! On the way to the airport the day I left my mom says casually, “so I’m thinking we will come visit around March or April.” That time felt so far away and IT IS FINALLY HERE! I realized that the reason I became so homesick while being here was due to the lack of family here. Sure I spent three months away from home in New Jersey, but I was surrounded by my family out there. 

So basically I just wanted to share that you are never too old to miss your parents and that having them travel across the world to come see you is pretty much the greatest feeling. Also they made it safely to Madrid and that is so wonderful! Hope everyone is enjoying their day/night and most importantly finding gratitude in something new every day! 



food for thought

Lately I have noticed that nutrition and diet have been on my mind more often then not. If any of you follow my Instagram or Twitter account you might have seen that I recently watched a documentary called “What The Health”. I have spent my whole life eating meat, so never being a vegetarian before, I’m not sure why the topic kept popping up in my head. However it was just one of those things that would randomly be on my mind. As I was scrolling through movies on Netflix this past weekend that title stood out to me. “Why not?” I thought, so I decided to watch it, and I will say that it has opened my eyes way more than I expected. 


I’m not going to harp on everyone to become vegetarian or vegan, but I will encourage everyone to check it out for themselves. I thought it was very interesting and seemed to be mostly honest. Of course there was a bias but some of the information was hard to ignore. 

Everyone has a rhyme or reason, right?

So getting a little more personal...When I was 17 years old I was diagnosed with IBS (irritable bowel syndrome). It is not something that will go away. But can almost completely be managed with diet. This is one reason that being vegan (eating an all plant based diet) has crossed my mind. At first I thought it would be too difficult and that I wouldn’t be able to eat so picky. After years of making so many changes to my diet I will say that eating healthier and more plant based items have only made positive impacts to my overall health. After seeing those changes it makes becoming vegan only more ideal.


I definitely have a lot more to learn before I make any drastic changes. Especially being abroad, I don’t think this is something that I will be able to fully commit to. I still want to experience the culture and try the food wherever I travel. But now I have a new curiosity for becoming a vegan and I am pretty sure that when I get home I just might try it out! 



Here is a link to the website from the documentary, take a look for yourself! 



what color is your grass?

We have all heard that the grass is always greener on the other side... I have been so conflicted since coming to Spain. A huge thing for me before coming was being worried about leaving too soon. Giving myself the time to adjust and get comfortable and then having to leave. Being in Arizona made me so ready to travel and see the world. Because how could you want to stay home when you have the opportunity right in front of you? Well here I am. Across the world. Some days I find myself wanting nothing more than to be home, and other days I wonder how I could ever want to be stuck in a desert. I’ve been told how to feel by so many people. All with the intention that they are helping to encourage me. I am so lucky to have so many people who check on me and care. I have come to the conclusion that my feelings each day are valid. They are not silly, or wrong. It’s okay to feel uneasy or excited or nervous. Each day is a new day and I know that I will be missing this beautiful place one day the same way I am missing my beautiful home right now.

The lesson I have learned from this, and a lesson I keep coming across: we will only truly understand what have after it is no longer ours.

Therefore let this be a reminder to be appreciative and grateful for all that we have. Especially when we have it.


things no one tells you about going abroad

or maybe they do and you don’t listen….

1- packages are not a thing. My poor mom paid a ridiculous amount of money to mail me a care package right after I got here. (almost 2 months ago) Inside (to my knowledge) there is almond butter, Cholula hot sauce, and Frank’s Buffalo hot sauce. Give or take some random things my mom added for a “surprise Valentine’s Day gift”. I have filed several documents through the postal service in Alicante, which has taken almost a month. I have since been told that my package remains in Madrid in customs and that if I wish to receive it I have to get my visa registered through the tax agency…. The list goes on and basically what I am getting at is simple: PACKAGES FROM HOME ARE NOT WORTH IT. Did I mention that I am also being asked to pay 50 euros for my package… yeah so that’s a bummer. 


2-Banking. Can’t decide if this is my biggest mistake I have made or second. I came here thinking that the best and easiest way to get home and use my money was to set up a Spanish bank account and transfer my money from my home account to this new one. WRONG. Actually such a hassle and waste of time. After getting to a bank and setting up a checking account I found out it would take a full week to get my debit card. Which I was to return to the bank to get, not to be mailed to me. Then once I FINALLY get the card, they forget to give me a pin code. Now I have a card with my money deposited and waiting for me and no way to use it. Setting up an online account is apparently a whole separate thing and takes up to a week to process. So time goes on, I finally think it’s all figured out. Well now my card won’t allow me to withdraw cash and is declined everywhere I try. However, my account balance is definitely more than enough…. the mystery continues. Lesson learned, DO NOT GET A SPANISH BANK ACCOUNT. 


3-It all adds up…. know the details when planning a trip! My first trip outside of Spain was Paris. Looking back at it, this trip was a really great learning experience. When looking for flights and airbnb’s everything was looking so promising. Our flights were cheap, barely $60. Airbnb was about $35 per person since we stayed for 3 nights. To be honest that was all I really looked at. Given we made the plan to go to Disneyland at the child’s price for $49 however to go into the other park we needed an additional $20… you can’t go to Disneyland Paris and NOT go to both parks. On top of this, the bus and tram cost was the biggest thing that I didn’t see coming. We were in Paris for four days and so we got passes to help us get from point A to B… our cheapest option was 53 euros for 3 days… On top of food and drinks for all these days, let’s just say that everything adds up. 


These three things have really stuck out to me, obviously not all apply to everyone-but maybe this will help to get a better feel for it.

visitor # 1

Many people have been asking me how my trip has been and I know that I am flooding social media with pictures. I have seen some really incredible places and met some wonderful people. It has been hard to keep up with everything, but I have been keeping a journal of everything I do each day. That way I am able to look back and remember more details incase I start to forget. 


One of my best friends, Tayler came to visit me all the way from Idaho! I traveled to Barcelona (all by myself) to go meet her and pick her up. Anyone who knows me might be worried about that situation because me traveling alone in Spain with my lack of Spanish speaking ability should scare anyone. However, I am here to tell the story so it can’t be too bad, right? Anyways, Barcelona was full of a lot of firsts for me. It was the first time that I didn’t have my two wonderful navigators and translators. I felt like the training wheels where taken off and my bike was going down a hill. Luckily the tram and bus system is very similar in Alicante. So that wasn’t an issue really… except for the fact that I do not have a phone plan or data out here so unless I have wifi I can’t use my phone. Looking up directions is not something I am able to do when I get lost. I won’t lie Barcelona was a short visit, Tayler got in late Saturday night and on Sunday everything was closed and the Park Güell was packed and we weren’t able to get in before we had to head back to our train. Of course I didn’t think about getting tickets before hand.. * note to self always look into tickets prior to visit* We took a train back to Alicante, explored the city I live in and that weekend we traveled to Las Palmas, Mallorca. This is an island off the coast of Spain and it is BEAUTIFUL!! We got off our plane and we went to the aquarium for several hours. I am such a child at heart when it comes to aquariums or zoos. After we walked across the street and found the beach! As we walked down, we saw a sign for a fish spa massage. It was only 10 euros, not to mention something I have always wanted to try, so of course we did it. Then we relaxed on the beach for a few hours until we were able to check in to our Airbnb. The next day we took an hour bus ride to Valldemossa, Mallorca. Our Airbnb host recommended it and honestly I am so glad we went! It was the perfect day trip and a beautiful morning to explore. We had to catch our flight back around 4pm but even in our short trip, it was well worth it. Although I will mention that our flight coming home was a ridiculous amount of turbulence. I have flown on airplanes every year since before I can remember, and I have never heard the Captain tell the flight to “please fasten our seat belts, remain calm, and review the safety cards in front of you”. I had fallen asleep and woke up to the plane shaking and hearing that… But it’s fine we landed and all was okay. 



Tayler and I tried some new restaurants and lived for the sunsets in this beautiful city. We got up close and personal with the yachts and boats at the marina. Since Tayler works for a marina company back in Coeur d’Alene she was definitely in heaven. All I could think about is how badly I wanted to go out for a boat ride. Tayler also came across the coolest coffee shop near my place called Sip and Wonder. I. Am. In. LOVE. They are the sweetest owners. They are dog friendly and have a boxer that is the most well trained dog I have seen. He is my newest best dog friend. So of course we went there for breakfast the morning Tayler had to leave. T’was a sweet time having my girl get a little taste of Europe with me.



    I made this blog with the purpose of being honest and sharing my experiences as I travel, learn, and grow. I keep having to remind myself that “honesty” is not always easily shared. But I believe it to be the most valuable thing we can share with one another…

    I am the last person to be described “a homebody”. Ask my parents, I am never home. I am constantly on the go and keeping myself busy. I have been away from home for three years for school and for the summers and for numerous trips. Not once have I ever felt ‘homesick’. I am trying my hardest not to let these new feelings get the best of me. But if I had to guess, my mix of emotions have led me to believe I am suffering from a good old case of homesickness. I’m not sure if it’s a comfort thing or what. All I know is that I would gladly get on a plane right now and go home. 

    I know what you are thinking- “but wouldn’t you regret leaving” “you have the opportunity of a lifetime” “your life looks so amazing” “you look like you are having a blast”. You would not be wrong. I am aware of all these things. I am also battling everyday in my head asking myself if I am where I am supposed to be.     

    This is where God comes in. With the amount of alone time I have especially with transportation and what not, I don’t have an international phone plan or data. So while the rest of the people surrounding me are checking their latest newsfeed, social media posts, and messages, I am alone in my head. I have been filling that time with prayer and conversations with God. He has been the one thing I count on and he knows every single one of my worries. I continue to pray that these feelings of doubt and loneliness subside and that I am able to ride out these last few months. After all, it is the opportunity of a life time.


When in Paris... 10/10 would recommend the following: 

1- Picnic in front of the Eiffel Tower 

2- Obviously you have to go to the Louvre 

3- Visit the Notre Dame (caution lots of pigeons)

4- Spend hours in Musée d'Orsay (don't forget to look up at the ceilings)



one down- four to go

It has officially been one month since I have started this journey abroad and it feels like it’s been 5 (I swear January lasted forever). So far I have been to Madrid, Alicante, Altea, San Juan, Paris, and Granada. Each place beautiful in its own way with something new and exciting for me to see. 

It has been interesting to see life in a completely different way. The city life- like I mentioned before is a huge change from what I am used to. I have never relied on public transportation more in my life and I am still so amazed at how it all works. A common question lot of people have been asking me this past year “where do you want to live after Spain?” (And after my massage therapy school...) The truth is- I don’t know. Being away from home has equally made me realize that

1)Despite all my years of complaining about Arizona, I really do love it. 

2)There are still so many places I haven’t even been to before I decide where I want to be.

What I do know is that traveling has helped me realized that there is so much more. More to see, do, learn, and experience. 

*Pictures to come, or check my Facebook/Twitter/ Instagram for more*


class outside of class

contemporary art

Today my class went to the Museo de Arte Contemporáneo de Alicante. I don't know much about history or art to be honest. I felt very out of my element... But it was pretty interesting to look at all the creations and not to mention we weren't in a classroom. I'm pretty sure I wasn't supposed to take pictures but... oops. 


Ayuntamiento de Alicante

We also went to Ayuntamiento de Alicante to see the inside and it was honestly unreal how beautiful it was. 


my life as a beach

I have been spending a lot of time on the beach, overlooking the ocean...


God created the sea just as He created you and me.

On days when the water is rough remember the moments when it returns calm and clear.

Waves will form and crash.

Tides will change and rip currents will form. 

The surface doesn't always show everything that is going on below...

Yet there is the beauty in all the surroundings.

The sand is the foundation and the base; this is my faith.

There are jetties that serve protection; this is my family.

The palm trees sway together as they experience changes in weather; these are my friends.

Travelers come to see and experience the beach; these are all the people I meet along the way. 

Some will stop and smile, maybe take a picture.

Others won't blink an eye and will walk right on by. 

Some might stay and grow, maybe even tear something down to create something new.

Each person will leave a footprint on my beach.

Big or small, their hearts will say it all. 



Coming to Spain sounds like a dream come true, right? Well- I want to touch on how I got here. I had some incredibly tough decisions to make in order to come here. Saying goodbye to my family, my friends, leaving my job, leaving behind everything that was normal and comfortable. Everything that I knew. I walked away from it all. 

This past year has been a series of changes for me. I am aware that it is all apart of life and everything has to change eventually... This time a year ago I made the decision that I was going to stay in Ocean City, New Jersey for the summer and work. After that I was going to move back home to Phoenix and find an internship there. I moved out of Flagstaff in May of 2017 and I was ready to leave and never look back. Come time to leave I drove away with tears in my eyes. I never realized the impact that little mountain town had on me. The impact of all the wonderful people I had met. I thought that saving money by living at home would be a great idea. I didn't consider that I would be leaving some of the best places and people behind... This feeling returned when I built friendships over the summer in New Jersey and had to leave to come back home. Going into my fall semester interning at ASU I had a better idea of what it felt like to leave. It is never easy and each goodbye harder than the last. 

As I got ready to leave for Spain I reminded myself that this too would end in a goodbye. I also told myself "how lucky am I to have a reason to make saying goodbye so hard?"

There was a period of time when I almost backed out. I prayed and asked God that this was His plan for me. I agreed that if this was where He wanted me to go, I would follow. I still wasn't sure when I first came here that this was the right decision but I am hopeful it was. 

I guess what I am trying to say is that I miss America. I miss my house, my family, my dog, and my friends. I even miss my car. I am still so thankful to be here and so thrilled for the friendships I have just begun to create. I am more and more excited to travel everyday. I just wanted to tell everyone the truth. I also wanted to remind everyone how much they mean to me and that although my phone is living on airplane mode for five months, and only works when I have wifi, I think of you all everyday. I miss you all more than you know.







scratching the surface

    I want to tell everyone how amazing Spain is and how much fun I’ve had so far. I really can’t explain the beauty I have seen in my short nine days out of the country. Nine days… that sounds crazy because this has been one of the longest weeks of my life. Yet somehow each day feels as if it goes by in the blink of an eye. 

    Adjusting- I am trying to remind myself that it will take some time for my body to fully adjust to the time difference and the lifestyle change. Truthfully, the whole process has been draining. I am so grateful for all of this, but I could also go for a five day nap. I never expected for my mind to become so exhausted from constantly trying to figure out and understand what is going on around me. 


    Being here has made me realize that I was on auto-pilot at home (WAAAY more often than not). That is awful and slightly terrifying if you think about it. I am sure I’m not the only one either. I never had to try to understand the conversations going on around me, or the signs in front of me. I am so excited to be learning Spanish by immersing myself into a new culture/language. To be honest- it is probably the most challenging thing I have ever done. I am only two days into my classes and I am so nervous that I will not pick it up fast enough. (Two days. *internal note to breathe and remind myself two days is not a long time* )


    I will say that I have the tram system figured out, which is huge for me because public transportation is also like a foreign language (*small win??…=brownie points?*). I am able to speak enough Spanish to order myself a coffee at a near by café (+1 brownie point). I also have some great friends and roommates. My roommates have been BEYOND helpful with getting me familiarized with this city and everything else I need to know. So shoutout to Alicia, Chyann, and Arlette! 



I truly am going to love it here. I am also positive that there will be challenges and obstacles.

just the beginning // getting settled

First detailed update since leaving the country! (caution this is long) 


    I left Phoenix on Tuesday and had two days of traveling. I am thankful to report that all went smoothly. Other than a minor hiccup which involved racing to get on my flight from Dallas to London… The important thing is that I made it to my final destination with all my belongings. 


    1. Q:“How many flights did you have?”

    A:“3 (Phoenix —> Dallas; —> London; —> Madrid)” 

    2.Q:”How long is the flight…and *list of questions that follow*-?”

    A:”From Dallas to London, 9 hours

    - no I couldn’t sleep

    - yes there was food (interesting but good)


    -I watched four movies

    -In London I had a 5 hour layover, then a 2 and a half hour flight to Madrid. (which I finally slept)

    My friend Chyann was my hero of the week and was there to greet me just outside of security. With her help we went on a series of three separate metro transit rides before arriving a few blocks from where she had our Airbnb waiting for us (told you she was my hero). I was able to shower and then she showed me around Gran Vía, Madrid. We found a place to eat dinner. Gran Vía reminds me a lot of New York City. Not quite as crowded but the streets are narrow with lots of alleys, very city like I suppose (says the girl who lives in a desert). There are so many massive, beautiful buildings, all with unique and amazing architecture. 

    After we ate, we walked back to our place for the night and hit the hay- or so I tried. Adjusting to such a huge time difference (+8 hours) isn’t as easy as I hoped… Probably why it’s 3am and I am typing this… (to be fair it is 7pm in Phoenix). I did my best to sleep but after four hours I was wide awake… I finally crawled out of the top bunk and made my way to the other room and watched ‘How I Met Your Mother’ for about 6 hours until my computer died. Then I was able to sleep for another three hours or so. 

    We made eggs for breakfast and then hit the town! We walked to Museo del Prado, Plaza Mayor de Madrid, and Puerta del Sol. We went to a café in Puerta del Sol, had lunch at Trattoria Pinocchio Sánchez Bustillo. Then we had about 5 hours to kill before our train for Alicante.


There is a store that Chy wanted to go to that is called Primark. It is very similar to H&M and the Madrid location is 4 stories. No joke. F O U R!!! It was basically it’s own mall. I have never seen anything like it before. After we spent several hours in there, we wandered around looking for gelato... and failed. We looked up two different places; and either the maps lied, or we are silly and just missed them. Just wasn’t meant to be I guess…We settled for orange juice instead, which by the way, the orange juice here is AH-MAZING! Freshly squeezed and so yummy! Finally we made our way to the train station. 

    After a two hour train ride and about a five minute taxi ride, we finally made it to our apartment in Alicante!! I am unpacked and so excited to see this area in the daylight (we arrived around midnight).

It has been a long couple of days, but so far, all incredible. Today I walked a total of 9.48 miles (21,263 steps), my legs are definitely going to be sore! At least I am making up for all the sitting I did while getting here, right? 


Anyways, that’s all for now! Thank you to everyone who has reached out to let me know they were thinking of me while I was traveling! You all mean the world to me and I hope you all know that I miss you!!





7 things I learned in 2017...

1. "Everyone is a lesson or a blessing"- you are capable of learning something new from every person you meet. What you take away from them is up to you.  

2. Happiness is not dependent on your circumstances, but is a decision you make. 

3. Hang up and hangout. Technology is cool but don't forget that the people in front of us are not always going to be there.

4.  Being present is the best present. Not only should we be giving our undivided attention to the people in our lives, but to ourselves. Be present in every moment. Don't waste your time being in the past or the future. 

5. Every action you make will have a reaction. This sounds obvious I know, but remember that everyone is affected by our choices and decisions. Take this however you want but this applies to so many aspects in life. 

6. "Ships were not built for the harbor"- Stepping outside your comfort zone is the safest place for growth. I have learned this in my internship, and with my decision to travel to Spain. In making this blog.

7. I will never stop falling in love with the art God creates in the skies and on this Earth. While I am anxious to travel and explore the world, I will hold Arizona close to my heart everywhere I go.

the sun will rise again

the sun will shine again


I have good days. I have great days. I have bad days and worse days. I am so thankful for the bad because they teach me to be grateful for the good. 


One of my reasons for making this blog was to be honest with everyone in my life as well as myself. I would be lying if I said that I was always so positive and happy and as cheerful as I might seem. Aren’t we all though? I was hanging out with an old friend the other night and our conversation allowed me to really reflect on how far I have come. This was a friend who saw me on some of my worst days and was close to me through some of the hardest obstacles I faced. He was always supportive and real with me. He knew that I needed help long before I admitted it. That was part of our conversation was that I was telling him how I was working on being honest with myself. Depression and anxiety are a part of who I am. Why is that so scary and hard to say? I don’t know but I do know that it is the truth, and I am so thankful I was able to reach a point in my life where I was able to admit that and seek the help I needed. 


After graduation I looked back on my last three and a half years and realized that this was a moment I never saw happening. That sounds awful I know. But for whatever reason I never thought I would make it this far. Life truly is a day by day thing and if we spend our time stuck in the past or rushing to the future we miss everything right before us. Just remember that you are always strong enough to make it through whatever it is you are going through. Be proud of yourself. Love who you are becoming and respect yourself.


new year's resolution

I typically will create a list of things that I want to accomplish or whatever for the new year and the list is always very similar. This year I have made the decision to make the world a better place. How? I have decided that as a college graduate and an adult, what better way to try and make a difference than to sponsor a child in a third world country. So I am officially the sponsor of five year old Marcos. On top of this I figured a list wouldn’t hurt either and I like to think of twelve things, one for each month of the year(not that the order matters)… so here goes nothing!

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  1. Make a positive impact on everyone I meet
  2. Keep an open mind
  3. Don’t drink Tequila
  4. Write something down everyday
  5. Pray for someone new each day
  6. Learn Spanish
  7. Be present
  8. Don’t kill time on my phone
  9. Eat healthy/ exercise daily
  10. Practice yoga
  11. Cherish the little things
  12. Be kind always

words. are. power.

Writing is such a beautiful thing. Words have the power to create something so strong that it could linger in our minds forever. Words are used to tell stories, share memories, express emotions, and give life to the thoughts inside our head. 


There are times when I look back on things I wrote, or letters that where written to me, and I am able to relieve those memories. I have a journal that my mom wrote to me and my brother when she knew that her cancer was terminal. In this journal she did her best to share as much as she could with us. Each page a new topic written on the heading. "Describe your childhood home" "Grandparents houses and how often did you visit" "Where did you go to church, become a Christian and about faith" "What chores did you have growing up?" "First job" "First kiss". The list goes on... She wrote this hoping that we would be able to look back and read it when we were older. I can't express enough how grateful I am for this. Her words are so full of passion, love, and God. She was actually an angel on Earth I swear. She spoke freely of her love for God and her faith as often as she could. Through her words my mom inspired me to remain a believer even in my darkest times of doubt. I have fought my own faith journey many times, after her death, after losing my Nana, and losing friends too young. I would not be the person I am today without the testimony she shared. The power of her words changed me forever. 


I had a friend pass away about a year ago. He was a friend from church and he was someone who I thought of as a little brother. Every year my church youth group would go on mission trips and retreats. At the end of these trips we would always write to one another either on a poster or in separate notes. We call them "Agape" notes/ posters. Agape is the Greek word, meaning love. I loved this friend like a little brother. I wanted to protect him, and show him right from wrong. I wanted to prove that God's love was real and that he was loved and important. I never got the chance to truly share my words with him. He was brought to Heaven shortly after his 18th birthday. God has a plan for everyone and everything. I believe that. 

On one of my Agape posters, this friend wrote the most unforgettable note to me. His words are beyond powerful, they are engraved in my heart. They bring tears to my eyes, a smile across my face, and a bittersweet feeling in my heart. Full of love, because of the way I impacted him in such a way that he could share these thoughts with me, yet empty because I feel like I was unable to express my gratitude to him. 


The parts that really get to me... "I know for a fact that you have changed my life forever...You are like the big sister I never had. You are truly my best friend ever...It means so much to me when you include me in whatever you do. I will remember you forever." 

There is always a knot in my throat after that. Because I will remember him forever. He has changed my life. These words are something that have power beyond belief. If only you knew him you would understand that these words were not common. This coming from the kid who was constantly getting in trouble. He was always plotting something that was never a good idea. He used to swear under his breath while we sat in prayer circles. These words have power. 

a letter to you

Dear Friend,

I know we might not get to talk everyday. That's okay.

I know that sometimes when days turn into weeks, and those weeks turn into months... you haven't forgotten me. Just as I haven't forgotten you. 

There is something each day that will remind me of you. Your face or voice will pop in my head and I will hold that memory close to my heart. Sometimes I will reach out and let you know that I am thinking of you. But for all the times I don't, just remember you are loved. 

I have learned that it is impossible to stay in contact with every single person who means something to us every single day of our lives. It is a challenge I have faced for years. So instead I have learned to smile when you cross my mind. I will remind myself how blessed I am to have such wonderful people and happy memories. I will ask God to send you a similar sign and to show you love and comfort. 

Don't be sad if I am far. My love will go beyond any distance. I mean this more than I will ever be able to express.

Love Always,




Holidays are my favorite because spending time with my family is something I cherish. I have always found it hard to grasp the idea of life without them. We hear it all the time right? "Be grateful" "Count your blessings" "Cherish this". 

I would definitely agree that losing so many loved ones has been my constant reminder to be more grateful for the people in my life. This year has proved that to me once again...

For a house that is normally full of 16 + people on Thanksgiving, this year we had 10. We have been through some of the more difficult roads as a family together, and I am sure there are still more to come. Today, I am content. I am happy, and I am... THANKFUL for all that I have. For all who I have. For everything that I have gained or lost. 

I am thankful for...

  • Family
  • Friends
  • Freedom
  • Safety
  • Education
  • Employment 
  • Internship
  • Health
  • Fitness
  • Nature
  • Adventures
  • Opportunities

I am thankful for so much in my life and I pray that not a day goes by where I don't remember that. Every day is a blessing and not a promise. However, I promise to count my blessings every day. 


but only for a moment…

I have moments when my head is so full; of thoughts, words ready to flow, ideas spinning, memories flying around. Then other times it’s as if I am frozen and everything is spinning around me but I’m unable to grasp anything. These are moments lacking the clarity I crave. I wish that everything inside my head was simple and explainable. Honestly, sometimes I think it is. I think that I am so trained to overthink and worry about every detail, that the clarity vanishes. These moments scare me. Moments when I am unsure of what to say or think or do. I know that when I take a deep breath the moment will pass. Truthfully it will only last for a moment.


Life is made up of all kinds of moments. What I remind myself is that all the pieces of the puzzle make up the picture. Not all are perfect, or beautiful. Altogether they create a master piece. Nothing will last forever, but only for a moment.